I decided...

...shirking responsibilities is not so bad, for a while.

A couple hours ago I remembered when my dad was sick, he suffered two heart strokes and almost died. Then I remembered when the doctor looked at my dad's exams and then at him again and said: 'According to these exams you should be dead already!' , doctors how can you not love them. Well, the thing is in that moment (my remembering time) I had a revelation...I'm all down and depressed because I have the *time* to be depressed. If I were doing something for my life instead of bitching and complaining I would go back to my old self. So I went all girly and polished my nails, fixed my hair, took a shower an felt a thousand times better, of course it also helped that Pablo wanna go out with my on Monday (chuckles here) and we are gonna go to watch this chilean movie 'Chile puede'. We were gonna watch Hitman, but we both realised it was gonna be a waste of money.

So yeah, back to my revelation...

I'm gonna watch all the movies and series I love, and download all the soap operas and dramas I want to watch. There's no reason to expect these holidays are gonna be any different to the previous ones and that was my mistake. There's no need for me to stress myself over some stupid trips, if I wanna relax and truly run away from everything I should just pack my bags and go to visit my grandmother. She lives in a small town that I bet God doesn't even remember creating and they don't have telephones, nor Internet and cellphones work only if you are lucky enough to find the signal. Which is even better, two miles from there you can get to the beach, the prices are not that expensive and I think I'll be able to give my mom some decent vacations and then we can go back as good as new.

Carolina was right, I just needed to put my head straight and now I feel a thousand times better, still tired, but that's normal after your first year of 'real work' with really nasty people and noisy but lovely students.

I decided that next year I'm gonna save money from March to November and I'll maybe go to Easter Island for a couple days, or just to any good hot springs my cousin recommends me. I found out that making plans for holidays is just not my thing and that if I wanna rest I should begin for resting my head a little so from now on I'll be as retarded as any blond bimbo...a la Paris Hilton even and just have fun.

Uhh, did you hear that? I think my brain just sighed in glee, hahaha.

In other news: Today I watched the Nodame Cantabile special, it was sooo romantic, I can't wait to watch the second part. That reminded me that tomorrow it's my second Monthssary with my boyfriend, but I think I'll omit that from my mind and I think he will too. I'm sure he will agree with me that seeing each other 1 time through a web-cam doesn't look like a real relationship at all, so I suppose I'll wait until he comes back in February and re-take the whole thing from were we left it, or not x_x we'll see. I'm sure he feels the same, this whole 'I'll see you when I see you' thing is making me really ill and I bet he is ill too, hahaha.

I feel so much better now, no weight on my brain...so now if you excuse I'll go and have fun watching North and South, I need to feed my BBC madness ^-^.